Writing in sick tonight.... sorry

Today I am not feeling up to par.... my kids I believe are enjoying the mommy who is taking naps... haha...
Sometimes it is hard for us as moms to ask for help... I notice this more and  more with myself  lately... it is not to push away someone that we would enjoy spending time with, it is more this nervous feeling that we are not doing it all.. I think I need to let that go.... It is not a pride thing, possible stubborn thing... haha.... sorry this weekend has been boring, but I really am sick and going to lay down and put in girly movie... that usually helps anything... that does not turn productive~ haha... My daughter has been trying to take my makeup because she thinks makeup will make her grow big~ awww... sweet dreams friends

keepin simple..

Piggy back rides.... dancing.... popcorn... wii... movies.... and possibly a puzzle kinda night~ Tonight I am going to hope for a sky full of stars... and take the kids out in the yard and sit on a blanket and talk about stars and the moon being the same size for everyone if they put their thumb up and look at it..... I got that from the movie Dear John....

I was trying to type and tell my son to go upstairs and instead I said go outside... haha.. he jumps up and goes "Oh yeahhhhhhhhhhh!" LOL.... hate when that happens... finally got them in the house and cleaned up... much easier to keep track when they are inside...LOL

Sorry it is short tonight my dear friends but it is Friday and my mind cannot come up with more than this:)  Back at it with you tomorrow~

enjoying every moment....

This morning I woke up so rested and at peace... not sure if it was actually a good nights sleep due to the rainy weather or if it is part of a feeling of peace.. being content with our family life.... I  walk into my son's room and a rush of love fills me to the core... he is amazing, smart and so sweet... and absolutely angelic when he sleeps.... then I go to my beautiful, baby girl's room... and I just want to crawl in next to her.. and cuddle... she is growing and I realize that time is not always my friend.... If I came across a magical Jeannie in a bottle right now and I had a wish, I selfishly would wish upon a potion to bottle them up at this exact age and keep it forever...... The beginning was so full of insecurities and despair and I felt wore out and never even knew if I was making a difference ... and now.... I cannot seem to get enough...

The kids and I have been behind on our nightly reading... we were doing a chapter book every week and they loved hearing where we left off each evening.. we also have been so preoccupied with life and responsibilities that we have been lacking on our Friday movie and popcorn night.... today at work reminded me of that... so tomorrow night we are having our family night... maybe break out a big puzzle again.. I finally organized my summer business schedule and I realize there is not much time for my kids.... yes, it takes alot to get a business going but they will come first and I am no longer burning myself short.... they deserve what they give to me.... everything worthwhile!

Possible sappy message tonight.. I am lacking my coffee today.... haha... sorry friends... thanks again for reading along~ Enjoy the moment, moments are not gauranteed:)

A day full of smiles....

Awww... nothing like starting the day intaking the intense smell of finger nail polish... oh thats right... not sure the last time I did that to my own nails.. but today was for the smile from my babygirl Carly... she had tea with the queen at daycare today and she was more than thrilled to get "beautiful" before we even could open our eyelids.... haha...


Breakfast, painted nails, hair put up, her favorite dress on.... lipgloss and her beloved purse with all of her favorite things..  she was ready!!!!!!!!! All the way into town her brother had to keep hearing about tea with the queen.... finally he responded... "I do not want to have tea with no queen.......... I am a boy we want to hang out with the King!"


Again, I spilled my coffee... but this had everything to do with laughter.... haha


We arrive at daycare which felt like an eternity to Carly... and off she runs to show everyone how beautiful she looked.... and all of sudden she enters a room full of girls all excited to meet the Queen..who are also dressed up... nervousness enters her mind... then she comes with a look of fear... and says "Mommy, I do not think I am the most beautiful girl here... can we go home so I can change my dress?"  awwwwwwwwwwwww....... but what my little girl will never realize is to me she is the most amazing, beautiful brown eyed firecracker I know!:)


Sometimes we feel like we are searching for a sign.... a sign to know we are making the right decision or a sign that we help us find the right way ..... or even a sign that lets us know someone is there..... and for the last 6 and half years..... the moment I became a mommy... that was my sign to do better, to live better, to smile more, to enjoy life, but mostly a sign that this is what my world was missing and now is completed.... As I relax from my day... my message tonight is you might have the sign your waiting for right in front you... stop looking so hard~ Good night friends.... back at it with you tommorrow....

I now have an official 1st grader... tears..

Today was a bittersweet day.... along with a very proud day!

My son had his last day of kindergarten today, and I cannot believe how fast this cycle of life really does exist...... from his chubby rolls and his butt scooting... (he did not crawl until he walked)  to all of the firsts... to this moment... Of course, I had to walk him in to his class today... I do not know what I was expecting.... a time freeze machine... anything to stop the emotional rollercoaster that he is growing up... LOL but no... nothing that exciting prevailed... except for his big smile and the twinkle of excitement in his eyes... for all he understood was this was his last day, the beginning of summer vacation... even never having it before, kids understand that it is a important day... LOL...  so I reminded the substitute where he is to go after school, just to make sure he arrives to me at the end of this day... the feeling of accomplishment rushed through me... I am doing this all by myself and it is amazing.. raising my two kids, running the household, paying the bills being the only money maker in the family and cooking and cleaning along with trying to work and run a business.... whew.... I will admit... I was flying on a cloud 9 for a few moments... LOL

The day of work was over and off to get icecream cones and head to the park... what a way to celebrate and hear the stories of the last day... :) Next year my babygirl will start pre-school and my son a first grader and on the way home... it hit me... I need to start planning the big school shopping trip... then out of my mouth before I could stop it... I asked the kids... do your snowpants still fit, do you think they will fit you next year? oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh my... why I cannot just enjoy this beautiful weather before I invite winter into my vocabulary agian~....

Kids are snug as a bug in their beds... and mommy is close to be in hers.... goodnight friends... Thank you again for reading:)

action packed dilema Monday....

For a Monday, today was going pretty organized, woke up on time... kids were exceptionally willing to wake up and even got a few drops of coffee down before I spilled it on myself...haha... usually spill before I get a drink of it...LOL.. even had the library books and mail that had to be sent out via the business ready... plus it was a beautiful day~....


Spoke too soon........... work was its usual... which is not stressful to me, the day was going actually amazing... until my son did not get off the bus to the daycare...... Mommy panic set in, what happened? where is he? who is responsible for this?  Thankfully... I got ahold of the school he was put on the bus to our house which is never his route unless I get off early, seems they had a substitute teacher and she did not know any different.... wow... well I knew he was going to be home within the next 10 minutes.. I am 20 minutes away, luckily I had a great co-worker who was willing to stay for me and I drove so fast home.... thank goodness we did not meet a cop or that would have been the big child support check...haha... anyways, I was so concerned what he was feeling, how scared he was going to be, he is so sensitive and how scary and uncool that this had to happen at the end of a great kindergarten year... well I always wanted to be a race car driver... turns out I pulled up right after he got off the bus... he had the big alligator tears and he came running...." Mommy, I did not know what to do!" .... ok... tears well up in mommy's eyes, I reassured him that mommy was already on her way once he did not get off the bus and that everything is ok.....


Needless to say, he has not left my side for the last half hour... a half hour I missed of work, but I need to not worry anymore about that... what I do indeed need to worry about is this idea to make him happy, I volunteered to help him pick up sticks in the yard... what was I thinking!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL.... so off I am to get dirty but so thankful yet, for another journey of motherhood....  and learning how I do not think the fear of your child being lost or scared will ever stop... ohhhhh my poor future daughter n law! :)


We are having a simple dinner tonight, BBQ's and sweet corn.... they are enjoying their pineapple and grapes right now... I should have invested stocks in grocery stores... because I feel that is where all my money goes! LOL.... Thank you for following along and reading... we also have to say goodbye to Carly's beloved tadpoles ... they are no longer with us... is it wrong to be so relieved? LOL


Enjoy your day and evening friends~ Back at it with you tomorrow!

a sunday fun day:)

Besides the smell and taste of my highly sugar packed coffee.... My ultimate favorite thing in the morning is waking up on a Sunday... with the kids... hanging out in their pj's knowing it is what we love to call our "lazy" day.... we always enjoy making a big breakfast and then we all do our favorite things.. Braden loves playing the wii and Carly's biggest love as of right now is playing with Miles her kitten...Mom's favorite interest is either HGTV or food network...haha.. then I get 3 ideas for lunch and realize I only have 1 ingredient..haha... Today I was excited to find one of my friends has a blog about recipes and it is awesome! Check it out....http://mollycrockercooking.blogspot.com/ I love it:)


Today I have reflected on how much the children have grown.... not just physically but they truly have became these unique individuals and I am so proud~ I have never raised my kids and sugar coated anything but Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny... we have not dealt with the tooth fairy yet, but I am sure that will be another sugar coating... We all have this amazing beginning and one time chance to decide how to raise our children and we each find a place inside ourselves that we did not even know existed until we find our self explaining life.... I feel I even have an extra credit because I am surrounded by children all day with my job.. God really made us be children first, for a reason... I believe it is because we were always suppose to be so happy for life, so fresh and innocent and marvel over the little things... unfortunately we loose that when we grow... I am so lucky to have learned those feelings again from my kids:)




This afternoon, I am off to my office to work on my photography business...
but before I head in there... I am going to crank the music and get the kids and we will dance around our living room first... Carly has been showing us her new flipping moves... she loves calling it her awesome surprise moves! LOL... Have a beautiful day friends... Thanks for reading~

Ps. Braden and Carly you have turned my world right side up!